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Coffolet. Jester's Court. Distant Otherworld. Job Circle.
In a one room home I make breakfast for us Three eggs mixed with coffee since there is no milk Make a slightly off color omelet She loves my cooking I worry about burning my fingers on the pan And try to shake away my tired eyes As I dump a hundred staple sized shrimp on top Dried orange salty tasting things Adding color and a crunch more then table salt Plus there’s the black specks for eyes Which tend to fall out And collect at the bottom of the bag Like grains of sand from a volcanic beach And seem to pepper my coffee stained eggs In a perfect dispersal pattern That seems as purposeful As a master chief’s work Finally I dump on some pregrated cheese White of course as it is the most popular foreign color And thus the only color of cheese available at the supermarket I finish with a half moon fold But the egg breaks a bit along the seam Coffee just can't seem to match cream For keeping things together Still the taste is what is most important for us So I watch her face as she clamps down on the first bite It’s a closed eyed nod followed by a smiling thank you I accept her sincerity only after I have verified the taste as acceptable Then I accept her kisses and we have sex All and all I don’t mind making breakfast
I’m the jester I have a court There is no king So I’m the regent My palace is a loft And the business Is drugs, music, and sex Girls too young for anything else Come to me Out of boredom and despair They find a home in my sleepless hallways And feel they belong to the party that never stops Dealers do business in my bedroom And request rental prices I fill orders for the hardest drug For my minor court to get Buying forties by the box And Boons by the carton I walk the roof of my block And survey my domain By day I cross the street Suited for work By dark I strip my suit And write a vicious book While music is mixed about me I discover the fluidity Inherent in my body For a year I have a crew That’s a slice of the city’s underbelly Of them all, I’m the only one That can slip into skin To pass in respectable society This, my age, my distinctive personality With the gift of timing and environment Have put me in this de facto position I hear fantastical rumors about me And my social kingdom This assures me that reality is safe Because when contradictory gossip Comes together The impact creates whole new rumors To try to make sense of the chaos I am in the chaos I stir it And know that within A reality stranger then fiction I make my own truth But this faith Does not come with bliss This role I have Won’t be a lasting performance In the end The best I can hope for Is to jump clear When it all comes crumbling down around me And then be remembered As a jester That had his own court
I hear about Living squares And recycled paper People are starting to talk in a language I don't understand It has evolved past me I am a stubborn slow growing tree that wants to jam roots deeper into the ground Chattering birds have so much to say But I haven't seen their favorite TV show If you happen upon a cockroach in your home It's kind of a rule That there are nine others You haven't seen The night before I went paintballing Someone emptied a clip outside my apartment I spent half the night listening to the police They found every shell casing It was just a twenty two Probably wouldn't have killed me After going through my wall I laid on my bedroom floor Window open listening to them And smiled when they noted A car had been damaged I keep feeling like there's a curve to my thoughts Becoming a circle That's why I have knives stashed all over my apartment It's a comfort thing I think I want to become a librarian I'd have fun with knowledge It would make me feel powerful When I say I'm going to kill you I don't mean now I mean later when you're asleep Heh heh, just joking But seriously Everything else is true
Job Pay Taxes Software to help Help with software Outsource customer support Company that provides customer support outsources employee search Temp agency looks for employees by reoutsourcing Woman in Florida posts employment ad on Portland job search site I reply I talk to woman in Florida who directs me to temp agency in Portland I fill out an on line application I interview at temp agency and fill out a paper application They direct me to an on line application for the customer support company I fill out their on line application and then take a 37 page personality test This is the same exact test I have taken four times before in my job search Now I wait for a call back and then I will go in for an interview and more testing Assuming I pass all the tests and checks I will begin the two week training Finally then I may have the job At least until tax season is over